Monday, September 3, 2012

Do you think God... ?

... would forgive someone who said it was all too much? The loneliness and heartache from being in the gospel and being gay, feeling like I don't belong... feeling like I'm unappreciated and constantly hurt...

I wonder if God is all-knowing, why would he give homosexuality to his children when there's almost a surety that they will "fail." I don't think my life is a failure although some would see it as such if I stopped following the commandments. I know the gospel would always be a part of my life---I see myself still at least going to church sometimes, even if I wouldn't follow all the rules strictly.

I wonder what would happen if there was revelation on this issue. Instead of us just being left to fend for ourselves.

3 comments:

Noah Streams said...

Perfectly stated

Dean Scott said...

It is deeply personal so I will not say that my decision should be your decision. I left the church before coming to the realization that I am gay. Once I came to the realization, I decided to remain single and celibate. The decidion stood for eleven years until I had a very strong premonition that I should have a male partner. I wrote about it in a guest post on "Doves and Serpants." and a separte post to my blog about the story behind my "Doves..." post.

http://www.deanscottwritingandphotography.com/my-guest-post-on-doves-and-serpants/

You have my prayers. Like I said, you have to decide what is best for you.

Therman said...

My perspective is there would be no reason for you to ask for forgiveness from The Lord because you would not be doing anything wrong. Post-It-Boy, you do not have an evil bone in your body and even if your life develops into something different in the future, I am sure you would still be the same guy I grew to know and love those five years ago.