Thursday, December 6, 2012


I think that the next month or two will be bringing a lot of changes in my life. I am seeing changes already when it comes to my employment---

I am now inundated with work and projects which I will be working on completing as quickly as I can... but its a lot to keep track of.

Its a good thing though.

I just want to have a good life... the goals I am working towards are not so crazy or extreme that they are not possible. I just feel like I need a boost to reach some of those lower-hanging goals.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Interview Part 2

Turns out the job will maybe pay more than I thought. I don't know for sure. I will not worry until I get the job offer, if I do.

I suppose I'm just tired of being poor. So I am very crabby when it comes to money right now.

I need a hug.

Monday, December 3, 2012


I have an interview for a job which will probably pay me half of what I was making as a temp.

Pros? Benefits. And a steady paycheck. Even if the paycheck isn't very good.

Cons? I will have to work another 15-20 hours a week just to have enough to have a real life. Which will defeat the purpose of working for a life since I won't have a life.

I don't have a life besides work. And I work in order to have a life. Which I won't have because I have to work all the time. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't.

Oddly enough, this job interview makes me want to stop going to church anymore since I am feeling really bitter about where my life has ended up.


I think my life has turned into a bit of a joke, honestly.


And I've given up hope on having a good career working in my current profession. It'll probably always be as disappointing as my life has been. I've worked myself to the bone to remove most of my debts, lost my car in the process, and have no career options but to get something which doesn't pay as well... then work that until I can maybe work myself up career-wise? Seems like starting over.


As I said, life is a big disappointment but we're supposed to like hold to the rod and hope that things are better in the next life, I guess? When I magically become straight and will want to get married? I dunno. Seems like a bunch of shit.