Thursday, December 6, 2007

Chronic Fatigue

I have spoken to a doctor about this. And also my therapist. I think I have chronic fatigue. I think it might be stress induced. I really hate how I feel. I want to cry somedays because of how tired I am.

I had no classes today. I stayed home. I worked on an assignment which I wished I had more time to work on. Its due a week from today. I have another paper due on Tuesday. I want to go home.

When I go home, I will need a lot of sleep. I want to relax and just have fun for a change.

I talked to a friend tonight and it was really nice. However, every time I talk to friends in IM's it distracts me.

Tonight I made a big dinner. Maybe I'm tired because my body is just in need of nutrients. I feel slightly better than yesterday. But I still just want all my classes done.

I don't even enjoy school anymore. I just want to graduate.

Less than five more months.

I have hung out a lot with my friend who I'll call Chiquita. She's a young latina girl. We have a lot in common and we have fun together. We spend up to three days together for school or just hanging out. We had dinner together on Sunday.

I realized she's my only non-MOHO BYU student friend who has wanted to hang out with me more than once a semester.

She's already said she doesn't like me. SO no worries about hurting her feelings ultimately. She deserves someone who isn't quite a "work in progress" anyway.

I'm exhausted. I just want to fall asleep and wake up with no stress.


Abelard Enigma said...

I really hate how I feel. I want to cry somedays because of how tired I am.

Sounds like depression to me. I'm not a doctor or therapist - just a brother whose been there.

Are you taking antidepressants? If not then you might want to consider doing so. If you are, you might want to consider talking to your doctor about switching to something else because it doesn't seem to be working as well as it should. And, if you have talked to your doctor then I suggest making an appointment with a psychiatrist for management of your psychotropic medication.

Annabelle said...

I totally understand how you feel. And I wish I could tell you that graduating makes it all go away, but it doesn't. There are still days when I still feel like crying at the complete lack of energy I have.

October Rising said...

Have you been checked for sleep apnea? or other sleep disorders? I had chronic fatigue for years, never knowing I had sleep apnea.
Vitamain B Complex helps too!