I have spoken to a doctor about this. And also my therapist. I think I have chronic fatigue. I think it might be stress induced. I really hate how I feel. I want to cry somedays because of how tired I am.
I had no classes today. I stayed home. I worked on an assignment which I wished I had more time to work on. Its due a week from today. I have another paper due on Tuesday. I want to go home.
When I go home, I will need a lot of sleep. I want to relax and just have fun for a change.
I talked to a friend tonight and it was really nice. However, every time I talk to friends in IM's it distracts me.
Tonight I made a big dinner. Maybe I'm tired because my body is just in need of nutrients. I feel slightly better than yesterday. But I still just want all my classes done.
I don't even enjoy school anymore. I just want to graduate.
Less than five more months.
I have hung out a lot with my friend who I'll call Chiquita. She's a young latina girl. We have a lot in common and we have fun together. We spend up to three days together for school or just hanging out. We had dinner together on Sunday.
I realized she's my only non-MOHO BYU student friend who has wanted to hang out with me more than once a semester.
She's already said she doesn't like me. SO no worries about hurting her feelings ultimately. She deserves someone who isn't quite a "work in progress" anyway.
I'm exhausted. I just want to fall asleep and wake up with no stress.