This past weekend I visited my brother. He is divorced and has expressed how it is difficult being a divorced man in the church. He is a good man and an amazing father to his children. However, being divorced and a Mormon, he's a bit of a social pariah. I wanted to tell him that I totally knew how he felt. But I didn't.
I guess I'm a little chicken.
He and I got into a discussion about some of the problems and issues we both have with LDS culture. It was really nice, and actually, when he dropped me off at the airport he asked if he could circle the airport again to continue the conversation. Later, he texted me saying he enjoyed the conversation.
He mentioned that there is a tendency for the youngest son in a family of a lot of sons to turn out to be gay. As the 5th son and youngest, I didn't want to even use this as a lead into the "How interesting since its true!" lol.
Why was I so quick to disregard informing him about my life? I have kept it hidden from most of my family my entire life. I'm not ashamed. I guess I've kept it a secret for so long that I don't want to risk having any changes in my family. My brother and I have just started getting closer again for the first time since we were younger. I didn't want to risk it.
Isn't that ridiculous?