Friday, April 27, 2012

Continued worries and stress

I don't think my life is ever going to get normal, honestly. I'll always have something which is pseudo-normal. I'll still get dressed in the same clothes, still go to the same job (maybe) and I'll still always be fighting to stay on top of my life before the next bit of stress attacks me again.

That is no way to live.

I need to figure out a way to find some balance or I will go insane.

I almost hit a truck today while driving to work. Totally my fault. Didn't see it at all.

Don't even think anyone's noticed I've left NorthStar. Probably for the best. Since I didn't want to make a spectacle of it.

I'm so tired. I woke up at 8 AM or close to it and I have been dreaming about getting sleep since then. My eyes are bloodshot because of stress and a lack of sleep. Eye-drops only do so much.

Kind of want to curl up and not wake up.

4 comments:

Original Mohomie said...

Breathe. Trust. Work. Have patience. Hang in there. Some of us were never huge fans of 'normal' anyway, but if you do need changes of some sort, you can make 'em. You're stubborn enough to make it work. ;-)

Post-It Boy said...

Who said I was stubborn?

Okay. So probably everyone has said that at least once about me. :)

I would love my life to get a little more normal right now. Maybe not white house picket fence normal. But maybe just "I can sleep normal"

Bravone said...

I miss you on the North Star Facebook page. It's awfully quiet and not nearly as entertaining! I hope you are well.

Steve

Post-It Boy said...

Thank you for noticing me not there, Steve. I appreciate it. :)