How to not be with you...

Sometimes when I cannot say things in an email which is unsent I represent my feelings through a song. Which I didn't write but which speaks volumes of my heart. 

HOW TO NOT BE WITH YOU LYRICS.

I am walking home from the subway stop
Lights keep changing but I just stand and watch
I should know what’s wrong
Like I should know which way to go
I should hurt less
And I should remember my way home
But I don’t
I can’t see now that you’re not walking next to me

I don’t know how to not be with you
I don’t remember where I’m from
Know your touch, know everything you do
Well, I know everything except how to not be with you

Hands out and head bowed, I am still waiting for you
You keep on changing
I’m not through
I should hold my ground
I should have nothing to say
Should you reach for me
I should run my heart away
But i won’t
I’m not free
I’m not a lot of things I used to be, baby

I don’t know how to not be with you
I don’t remember where I’m from
Know your touch, know everything you do
Well, I know everything except how to not be with you

If I had not followed you, would I know my way out?
Because I let you lead me home and I can’t find it now
I don’t know how to not be with you
I don’t remember where I’m from
I know your touch, know everything you do
Well, I know everything except how to not be with you
Hands out and head bowed, I am still waiting for you
Hands out and head bowed, I am still waiting for you
I don’t know how
Hands out, head bowed
Hands out, head bowed
I’ll be waiting for you