You know, there's nothing in the world like the feeling of being special. I don't know why that is, but whenever I feel special and important to someone it makes me feel like I'm walking on air. Its a very good feeling.
I wonder if part of why same gender attraction is hard for us is because we are the types of people who seek others' affection and attention much more so than the average guy. We seek approval from others to intercept the lack of approval of ourselves. Does that sentence even gramatically or logically make sense? Hang in there---its 1 AM!
What I am trying to say is that so often we seek approval from others to gloss over the fact that we don't approve of ourselves. Or even love ourselves. I think that finding that approval in another person sometimes makes us feel normal, acceptable and good. I think that desire for approval is stronger in US as we tend to be emotionally sensitive people, who also happen to have low self-images of themselves.
Think about what the gay community does: forcing their agendas on others, seeking equal rights, marriage, etc. Isn't this just an outward push for acceptance and approval from a society which at the same time they hate? (Don't even get me started on the numbers of gays who hate President Bush and think he's as honorable as Chavez... who, I might add, is the actual devil and far worse than Bush.)
People can push for rights for whatever makes them happy. However, wouldn't it be better to first get approval from yourself?
Wouldn't it be nicer to accept oneself without the approval of society---to love yourself unconditionally---and not giving a damn about what you look like, act like, etc. in regards to what others think?
I think so.
I think its only after we accept and love ourselves for who we are that we'll feel good about ourselves and our position in the Gospel. We don't have to "accept ourselves" in the way society tells us by getting boyfriends and leaving the church.
As far as that feeling of being light goes that I mentioned at the beginning of my blog... I feel that a lot more now. And honestly, I couldn't care less most of the time what others think about me. I'm happy being me. That approval I feel that makes me feel good stems from me.
On a sidenote, it seems like I'm always having to give bad news to people... Ever feel that way?
2 comments:
I'm really glad to hear you've reached a degree of acceptance and love of yourself. I suppose it could be argued that the truly fulfilling sense of love comes from connection with deity and feeling that purest of all loves. But there's something to be said for finding it in yourself, as well.
To me, recognizing my imperfections AS IMPERFECTIONS and accepting my abnormalities without duping myself into believing they're "normal" is part of the process to truly accepting and loving myself as I am without denying myself the motivation to strive for improvement where improvement is possible and maybe necessary. I don't have to love everything I do and say, just like I don't love everything my dearest friends and family do or say, but why should I withhold acceptance of myself more than I withhold it from them?
I wrote more about this but will spare you the soapbox and maybe post it on my own blog another time. :-)
Anyway, I appreciated your thoughts here.
Oh yeah, and about the "gay agenda": I'll just voice that I think some of what is being done is good and necessary. Those darned gays aren't all nasty rights-mongers.
Honey, as a nurse, I give people bad news pretty much everyday of my life.
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