Monday, October 15, 2007

Being More Open to make a Difference

I'm currently a BYU student with limited "outness" ... It is not because I dislike myself. I think I'm a pretty cool person.

I have been wondering if maybe it would be a good idea to ultimately become more "open" with discussing my same-gender attractions. I realize there will be bigotry. I realize there will be some who would believe I am a plague on their household. However, I also know that others will open their hearts and perhaps remove some of their prejudism regarding people who are maybe a little different.

I've been toying with the idea of being more "open" upon graduation. My family, other than my parents, are unaware of what I deal with. I don't beat myself up anymore over my attractions. I don't have really have a lot of the issues I used to deal with---depression and such... So I don't really have much to hide.

As I explained to my mom and dad two and a half years ago, "I am not doing anything but letting you get to know me better..."

Maybe I could let the world get to know me better too. And in the process, maybe some attitudes will change.


Abelard Enigma said...

How much longer do you have at BYU? You have a unique opportunity right now in that you are in an environment that you will leave behind after graduation (assuming your family doesn't live in Provo/Orem). So, you could try it out, and go back into the closet after graduation if it doesn't work out so good.

If you only have a year or so left then I say 'go for it'. If you still have several years then maybe not just yet.

But, I agree with you, we need more people like you who are 'out' - to show the world that we aren't a bunch of sex crazed pedophiliac perverts out to corrupt the world with our evil ways.

Annabelle said...

You'll never be a plague on my household. :)

I think this is an interesting idea. If you decide to do it I look forward to the reading about the experiences it will bring you.