Monday, October 15, 2007

Being More Open to make a Difference

I'm currently a BYU student with limited "outness" ... It is not because I dislike myself. I think I'm a pretty cool person.

I have been wondering if maybe it would be a good idea to ultimately become more "open" with discussing my same-gender attractions. I realize there will be bigotry. I realize there will be some who would believe I am a plague on their household. However, I also know that others will open their hearts and perhaps remove some of their prejudism regarding people who are maybe a little different.

I've been toying with the idea of being more "open" upon graduation. My family, other than my parents, are unaware of what I deal with. I don't beat myself up anymore over my attractions. I don't have really have a lot of the issues I used to deal with---depression and such... So I don't really have much to hide.

As I explained to my mom and dad two and a half years ago, "I am not doing anything but letting you get to know me better..."

Maybe I could let the world get to know me better too. And in the process, maybe some attitudes will change.

2 comments:

Abelard Enigma said...

How much longer do you have at BYU? You have a unique opportunity right now in that you are in an environment that you will leave behind after graduation (assuming your family doesn't live in Provo/Orem). So, you could try it out, and go back into the closet after graduation if it doesn't work out so good.

If you only have a year or so left then I say 'go for it'. If you still have several years then maybe not just yet.

But, I agree with you, we need more people like you who are 'out' - to show the world that we aren't a bunch of sex crazed pedophiliac perverts out to corrupt the world with our evil ways.

Annabelle said...

You'll never be a plague on my household. :)

I think this is an interesting idea. If you decide to do it I look forward to the reading about the experiences it will bring you.