Sunday, October 23, 2011

To the Universe: Here's a Note

My future might change for the better if I get this job I'm trying to get... I'd be making a lot more money and I'd be much more stable in my career. I'd be able to take evenings off on occasion too---a major change from my 50-60 hour work week.

Right now, I just want to get rid of my debts and I'll do whatever I have to do to fix my credit and save for a house, a future, a baby, and all those things I'm working towards.
I know a baby is silly, but its all I think about. Everyday. Dozens of times.
I've begun writing down cute baby names on a post-it pad at work. Nothing noticeable. Just a little post-it where I write down cute names I like. Maybe somehow, in the back of my mind, I think about the cosmos somehow helping me if I focus on my goals of father-hood. Will my success rate grow if I think about this more often and make it a priority? I would like to think so.
Life is a daunting task of trials and tribulation. Will it ever get easier?
I don't even know if anyone reads this blog anymore. So maybe I'm just writing it to the Universe. Perhaps I'll get a response. Or perhaps no one will notice or care about me and my little blog. I'm just another one of those same-gender attracted Mormons who sit and blog too often about silly topics, I guess.
But to me, its not totally silly. These blogs contain my dreams. And if we cannot share our dreams and work towards them---they're just fantasy.
So, Universe, help me make my dreams a reality.


Larry said...

I'm reading. And enjoying getting to know you. A few years ago, I did the FB stalking thing, as we've a number of friends in common & I learned a bit abt you. I've always been intrigued with what you do for a living. I may have done something similar if I'd gone to a school where it was an option. I'l be interested to follow your surogacy path. I hope it can become a reality for you... Thanks for your thoughts ~ and just 'putting' them out there!

Larry J.

Post-It Boy said...

You facebook stalked me? Spooky. I guess you now know who I am based on my posting my blog to the NS group?

And I am looking forward to the surrogacy too. I just need the finances to get it started. :)

Larry said...

Oh yeah....haha...I totally forgot this was an anonymous blog. Oh, and like you haven't FB stalked. Isn't it one of the best aspects of FB? least you didn't say 'creepy'... ;-)