I guess how I am feeling right now is a wish to be loved.
I have friends who I have occasionally cuddled with---that has helped me feel connected to people. I really miss that closeness with my friends.
I don't want just any close contact with someone---I don't want to hug a random stranger. I want there to be a connection.
I miss that connection with other men.
I feel lonely.
I guess that is how I am feeling right now.