Better

I'm feeling much better today. I think sometimes I just need a little freak out. And then things calm. :)

I'm applying for some new work. Hopefully I get one of the jobs I've applied for. :)

Frustrated

So today I'm frustrated.

1) Tired of being ignored. Again. WHY does no one seem to want to have me around? Who knows.

2) Not sure if I'm going to the Evergreen Conference. Why? Because it hasn't really been helping me. And for Frustration Reason No. 1. Don't want to bug any of the Moho's who ignore me by showing up.

3) I'm financially in the crapper and have been ever since moving downtown.


The silver lining is that I'm searching for other work. Which hopefully will bring in bigger bucks. So we'll see. I am waiting to hear from a job interview which hopefully will help me if its what Heavenly Father wants for me.

Tired of feeling frustrated and ignored.

How I am feeling

I want to be in an Idina-Taye sandwich... For real. Both are amazing.

"Brave" by Idina Menzel

I don't know just where I'm going and tomorrow is a little overwhelming
And the air is cold and I'm not the same anymore
I've been running in your direction
for too long now
lost my own reflection
and I can't look down
if you're not there to catch me when I fall

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage
that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid but it's my turn to be brave

If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least its the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause its my turn to be brave

All along all I ever wanted was to be the light
when your life was daunting
But I can't see mine
When I feel as though you're pushing me away

Well, who is to blame? Are we making the right choices?
Cause we can't be sure if we're hearing our own voices
As we close the door even though we are so desperate to stay

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be Brave!

If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause its my turn to be brave

And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightning may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe

This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
I might be afraid, but its my turn to be Brave!

If this it the last time before we say goodbye,
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid, its my turn to be brave!